Due to my Catholic upbringing I am really tolerant of religion. I had my personal crisis of faith after 9/11. The Conn.shootings brings this to a whole new level. This no good fuck. . . just like the guy in Clackamas before, doesn't even stick around for the other part. Retribution, hatred, . . . what about religion? Eternal damnation? He has that from the public. Read a thing from Morgan Freeman yesterday. . . said it is the medias fault because we all know the names of the Columbine shooters, but none of the victims. Word. Back to religion and the Connecticut gunman. . . does God/Jesus/Allah/ love him? One thing I am particularly angered about; people are blaming his family,in particular the brother who hadn't spoke to him in years. My one sister is a hopeless alcoholic. I have no patience for her lies, and empty promises, she owes me money, too. I can only stand as an example. My life is certainly not pure by standards of the church, but the guardrails are firm. I have thought of suicide before, perhaps in a public place, but I never dream of taking anyone with me. A lot of people say we need to go back to the 50's 60's, where things were simpler. Those times would mean intolerance for alternative lifestyles, few women in the work force and a general boringness that I would love. I live in a small town in Oregon, one who has been ravaged by the loss of the timeber industry. Men with little smarts and big muscles made a lot of money, and a lot of children. We need that again. Close the colleges. Get out there after highschool on the levelest of playing fields. Do we need men in suits who do little but. . . wait, I see it: Remember in those movies where the gods sit around a ring in the clouds and watch, play with the earthlings. Put the Gods in $1000.00 suits, there you have it. One ordinary man cannot change the world in a positive way, but he certainly can ruin it.

Too Soon/Too Late

What I wouldn't give. . . Cherie, Blennie, I didn't know anything. Both of you are so contentedly married. More often than I should I think about how it would be to have sex together, when we both would know what we were doing.

Fly on the Wall

I was perusing the web and found a girl doing herself in her office at work. There was a woman I had a bizarre relationship(?) with at the City. She had told me she had F'ed herself at her desk on a saturday. Man, would I have liked to have seen that. Why, I ask myself? I think it was because I was often on such an intimate level with the Buildings in the City. I was often alone and they would allude to their secrets. You knew in the 1/2 century plus, there had been sex in those hallowed halls, but rumor aside, if I didn't see it, or hear it from someone who participated, it didn't happen.

I so wish I had been a fly on the wall watching Karen Little on that quiet Saturday.

The Politics of silence with FB

Good God I hate politics on FB. While I can get in the car and listen to any of the Right Wing Pot Stirrers and realize, that just like Howard Stern or Jim Rome, it's all a persona, a vehicle for ratings and money, on FB these are people in real life who have nothing to gain by putting it all out there. . . and out there they are.
Conspiracies, Obama's birth certificate, etc.; they really believe this stuff. Everyone has a right to an opinion, just as everyone has a right to a religion. It would be nice if someone would ask if we would want to know their opinion/religion.
Some have said religion is like a penis. We don't want to see it or hear you talk about it, and we certainly don't want it crammed down. . . yes, yes.
I have manged to stay silent on political issues on FB for more than a month now. I am proud of myself for that.
it is none of my business all of this hub bub about the breast cancer people and Planned Parenthood. I don't have any reproductive issues and I don't need a mamogram, but to see such turmoil. Not good. Aren't these both charities? Why do they call being anti abortion, pro life? Why do they call pro abortion groups pro choice? I imagine pro abortion has a negative connotation, as it should.
I got asked to sign a legalize marijuana petition yesterday. I thought back and told the girl how in the 70's we were sure that 4:20 would be legalized soon. Why is gay rights such a successful issue as opposed to pot? I don't believe I would smoke pot now, but this hazy cloud of semilegality and quasi medicinal value seems worse than if it were just illegal. Don't ask don't tell.
And how the hell does peeing in a cup not violate the 5th amendment?

Hurt Locker

I often review

movies on FB, thinking that perhaps someone will find my opinion interesting, or entertaining. More often than not, I find that to not be the case. That said, Hurt Locker is very good. Probably a good portrait of the adrenaline junkie. I wouldn't be happy to be in suburbia after Iraq unless I was happy to be there.