Due to my Catholic upbringing I am really tolerant of religion. I had my personal crisis of faith after 9/11. The Conn.shootings brings this to a whole new level. This no good fuck. . . just like the guy in Clackamas before, doesn't even stick around for the other part. Retribution, hatred, . . . what about religion? Eternal damnation? He has that from the public. Read a thing from Morgan Freeman yesterday. . . said it is the medias fault because we all know the names of the Columbine shooters, but none of the victims. Word. Back to religion and the Connecticut gunman. . . does God/Jesus/Allah/ love him? One thing I am particularly angered about; people are blaming his family,in particular the brother who hadn't spoke to him in years. My one sister is a hopeless alcoholic. I have no patience for her lies, and empty promises, she owes me money, too. I can only stand as an example. My life is certainly not pure by standards of the church, but the guardrails are firm. I have thought of suicide before, perhaps in a public place, but I never dream of taking anyone with me. A lot of people say we need to go back to the 50's 60's, where things were simpler. Those times would mean intolerance for alternative lifestyles, few women in the work force and a general boringness that I would love. I live in a small town in Oregon, one who has been ravaged by the loss of the timeber industry. Men with little smarts and big muscles made a lot of money, and a lot of children. We need that again. Close the colleges. Get out there after highschool on the levelest of playing fields. Do we need men in suits who do little but. . . wait, I see it: Remember in those movies where the gods sit around a ring in the clouds and watch, play with the earthlings. Put the Gods in $1000.00 suits, there you have it. One ordinary man cannot change the world in a positive way, but he certainly can ruin it.